A Long Time Coming.

So I haven’t posted a blog in absolute ages. Which I know I should have done, but between moving house and work I haven’t found much time to do anything, especially since I have been so tired throughout the whole pregnancy.

So 2 weeks ago I went for my 20 week scan, and everything with baby was absolutely fine, no extra arms or legs (or any missing ones).

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When I saw my little baby on the screen I almost cried (I admit a tear leaked out but nothing more, though I wanted too) it was just such a special moment, I can’t explain to non-pregnant women just what a heart-warming and special moment it is seeing your baby inside you. I cannot wait until I have him or her in my arms for real! 

As you can guess we didn’t find out the sex of the baby, though I was debating for ages and ages whether or not too. I desperately want to know (I’m not good with surprises) but at the same time a surprise like this would be amazing. In the end I just decided to go with what felt right on the day (though I had already told the other half that I wouldn’t find out – I still wasn’t sure). So now, late November / early December I with have a little surprise 🙂 

One reason that I haven’t posted anything really is because I don’t think I have much interesting to talk about. I haven’t felt overly excited at some times and all I seem to do is worry about the weight I’m putting on and the stretch marks that everyone seems to harp on about. Am I going to get piles and will sex ever feel normal again?! I’m more scared then anything at times. I’m scared about my changing body, I’m scared that I’m going to be a rubbish mother and I’m scared that I’m too young. I haven’t spoke to my partner about this as he’s so self assured that he’d just tell me I’m being silly. And I have no pregnant friends to talk to about any of this and I get the feeling my other friends are sick to death of me talking about my pregnancy. 

I have no idea about antenatal classes or anything, I feel very small and worried. I am excited for baby and I love buying stuff for him / her today I went and got some teething dummies for when that dreaded day occurs, I’ve bought bibs and bottles and blankets I’m waiting for the cot to turn up – but still, all I can do is worry in silence.

And no I appear to have poured my heart out. 

Anyway, the picture above is of my little bump at 20 weeks, I’m now 23 weeks and over half way through my pregnancy. 

xx

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12 weeks and counting.

It’s been a while!

But last week I had my 12 week scan 😀 and everything appeared to be going well 😀 It was so amazing seeing my little baby on the screen.

She was wriggling and squirming so much at first! and then she decided that she was comfortable and didnt move much except to wave now and again. It was such a precious moment.

12 week scan

But oh my goodness. I think she’s (or he maybe) might take after her daddy. We were meant to do a fluid measurement to find out whether or not she has any risk of Down Syndrome but we couldn’t because baby didn’t want to go into the right position and no matter how much i wiggled on the bed baby just did not want to move and get into the right position. So like her daddy she she clearly doesn’t do as she’s told.

SO, we can’t do that test, but I am having  a blood test. Bleerrrgh Do not like them. The y make me feel queezy.

 

A few days after the scan we went for our first baby shop, and to be honest, we didn’t quite know what we were buying, so we just went for one or two things to stock up on:

  • Baby wipes
  • Baby shampoo
  • Baby wash and soap
  • Sleepsuits
  • Bodysuits
  • Baby socks (which are so cute and tiny!)
  • Nappy bags

We’ve decided that w’re just going to stock up on essentials like the above for now, that way we’re not forever running out of things 🙂 (I thought it was a good idea)

We’ve also got some yellow bum cream (which you can’t buy in stores) which is amazing for nappy rash.

My mum has also said that she wants to buy us our cot, which is so nice of her and she’s also got us a Winnie the Pooh baby bath.

I’m so excited but I know it’s still fairly early and I still have 6 months  left! Which thinking about it, really isn’t that long, as these last 6 months have flown by…

I can’t wait for my little Christmas bundle

A Little Heartbeat! Made Mine Flutter.

Ok, so last Sunday I posted about the SCARE of my life that I had with Little Splodge.

Well, I am happy to reveal that on Monday I dragged The Partner to the Hospital to have our emergency scan.

I sat in the waiting room almost peeing myself with nerves (I presume it was nerves as I’d already been to pee-pee about 5 times that morning and it was only 9am).

But I was not the worst one, The Partner was wriggling around, making strange nervous noises in his throat and getting more agitated than I was. Which was ridiculous as HE wasn’t the one about to have a scanner shoved up his foo-foo.

ANYWAY so at 9.20 (dead on) we went into the little room with the scanner (I saw the scanner that would go up my foof and panicked – it was very long :/ which made me go pale apparently lol!!)

So anyway, the nurse, who was very lovely, asked me how far I was, I said about 7 weeks and OMG i almost passed out with happiness when she said “Oh well if you’re THAT far gone then we may be able to do an external scan”!!!!!! *PHEW* (The partner almost laughed at my sigh of relief).

So I got onto the bed and bam, NO warning at all she squeezed the ICE-COLD gel onto me, and only warned me that it was cold after my exclamation of  “HOLY FUCK”

SO anyway, I swear the room was DEADLY silent, you could have broken that silence by dropping a feather. The partner was gripping my hand, and I was so nervous! What if there was nothing there?????

But then the nurse spoke

“Yep, I see a heartbeat”

I think my heart stopped right then and there, and then I realised I hadn’t taken a breath for a while and was about to pass out.

She turned the screen and showed us our little babies heartbeat, I swear to God, it was the most precious moment of my life so far, it was so surreal seeing that my little Splodge had a heartbeat. It was tiny, literally just a little Splodge attached to a bubble (which is a Yolk sac which feeds Splodge for a little bit until I start too, or something like that The Partner thinks that this is gross, but never mind).

In the moments where I was watching my babies heartbeat, I think my heart could have almost exploded, it really was one of the most incredible moments ❤ and I love my little Splodge so much. My heart flutters at the thought of its little heartbeat and the fact it’s growing so quickly ❤

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So there’s my good news, I am still pregnant, and my baby is 7 weeks and 2 days today (our own guesstimate was 3 days off!!) and I am the happiest I could be 🙂

Whatever Will Be, Will Be…

So, it’s been a few days, and quite a bit has happened.

 

On Thursday night I had the scare of my life.

I started to bleed, I didn’t know what to do, as I’m finishing Uni I was in my student house and my partner and family were back home. I called them straight away, and as you can imagine I was terrified.

The bleeding didn’t last very long, and but sometimes it was bright red, I was so terrified that I was losing little splodge, I was crying uncontrollably!!

But there wasn’t much that anyone could do, Mum and Dad came and got me and I spent the night crying into my partners shoulder. In the morning we got an emergency appointment with my doctor, who was very sweet about the whole thing. She made it sound like some bleeding is normal, she said it didn’t sound like a miscarriage, but we can’t be too sure  so she’s booked us in for an emergency scan at 9.20 on Monday morning. Because I’m only 7 weeks she said it’ll probably be an internal scan – so I’m now nervous about that too!!

I’m really hoping that nothing is wrong but I’m too scared to keep my hopes high, in something isn’t right and it goes wrong. Every little ache and pain I get at the moment terrifies me… But I’m keeping my fingers crossed!! In the end I guess whatever will be will be.

 

Anyway, so for now, that’s all the pregnancy news I have, will keep everyone updated

xx

Getting the ball rolling.

So, I’ve started the baby process!!

I’ve booked my first Midwife meeting! It’s not for another 2 weeks…. Is it normal to wait that long? Oh well, even if it isn’t I don’t really have a choice.

I’m a wee bit nervous, I mean, I’ve never had to go to one before, Mum says she’ll ask me a load of questions about my families health and any illness (Not that I have a clue about that!!) Greg’ll be there too, but oh hell, I’ll probably end up holding his hand the whole way through like a child!

Add to that, apparently they’re going to steal some of my blood and shove needles in me :/ (Not sure I’m going to enjoy that all too much).

It’s all going to be worth it in the end. I’m just looking forward to my first scan when I get to meet little Splodge ❤

 

6 weeks 1 day today 🙂