I am 33 weeks and 4 days. This Thursday I will be 34 weeks, and I wont lie, I just want this baby out of me, I want to be able to hold him / her, to be able to finally see the little nose and ears, to hold his / her tiny little hand and to play ‘This Little Piggy’ on my little babies tootsies.

I am constantly being kicked in the ribs and am suffering from heartburn / acid indigestion – which is awful. I can’t sleep very well, I am always way too hot I can never get comfy and if I do find a comfy spot then baby decides to wriggle and I have to dash to the toilet and then lose my lovely comfortable position.

And my partner, don’t even get me started on him! He does just not understand pregnancy, He doesn’t understand why I’m so tired all the time, I’m now on maternity leave and he thinks that I no longer have a reason to be tired… The fool! I want to slap him half the time, he tells me I can’t do this or that, then moans at me when the washing up isn’t done, because I couldn’t stand due to freakin’ pelvic pressure!! I love him, but he makes me so so mad.

I’ve got my maternity bag(s) sorted, the pram is bought (I’ve had a good play with it, running around the house) It’s a travel system from Mothercare, and I LOVE it 😀 my parents are going to have the car seat due to the fact that we don’t have a car. Babies nursery is painted, 2 of the walls are a lovely yellow and the other 2 are cream with ducks stenciled on as a border 😀 babies cot is up, am going to take the mattress out of the plastic at the start of next month, so that is it aired and fresh for babies arrival.

We have pretty much all babies essentials bought, we have his / her coming home clothes, stacks and stacks of nappies, we have the steriliser and even have babies Christmas outfit sorted 😀 (he / she is going to be dresses as a reindeer!!! – I know, so cute)!

So in all, we are prepared for baby, all we really need are the monitors and a set of curtains…

But I wont lie, I am absolutely terrified. I have NO idea what to expect when labour starts….. What if baby is too big to fit out? and I have to have a c-section? What if my baby is starved of oxygen when coming out and becomes disabled? I am terrified of something going wrong! What if I get pre-eclampsia? What if my baby is still born? I just don’t think I could handle that. I love this little sproglet so much, I couldn’t handle it if something happened…

Get this Baby Out

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28 Weeks and Counting…

Today I am 28 weeks (unless the title didn’t give it away). I went to the midwife (for the 4th time now) and the next meeting is in 3 weeks, by which time I will be 31 weeks. This probably seems highly obvious to everyone, but being a new mum-to-be I cannot believe how quickly these last 6 and a half months have gone, I only have about 12 weeks left until the dreaded labour day. It is terrifying!

Recently my mood swings have been getting worse, when I’m at home on my own or if it’s a quiet day in with the other half I start to panic, I find myself worrying that I’m not going to be a very good mother, that I’m going to get everything wrong or that my child wont love me as much as I already love him / her. I know in my last post I moaned a bit about how baby has been killing my back, but I truly love my little one more than anything! No matter how much pain he / she puts me through. Also, when I’m at work my moods are so volatile, I have no patience for anyone that even looks at me the wrong way! I don’t think I’m going to last until I want to at work. I was going to take my maternity leave from the 1st November, but the way I am, especially with back pain (which I get constantly, and not just the spine pain) and the poor customer service that I seem to be dishing out at the moment! Baby has finally moved, so he / she is not on my spine any more, which is a blessing as I was doubled over crying on some occasions!

I cannot wait until I finally get to see my little angel for the first time, it is so scary that it is only in 2(ish) months that I finally get to set eyes on my own flesh and blood, a little being that I have created. The thought and feelings that this create are unparalleled to anything I have had the privilege of feeling!

My recent blood results came back today too, and everything is fine, my blood is perfect (again) the only problem that was found was that my stores of Iron are a bit low as they are what baby takes, but the Iron in my blood is perfect. So I’m only on one Iron tablet, which is great really, as some women have very low Iron when it comes to this time in their pregnancy apparently…

Anyway, that’s all the news for now 🙂 till next time.

 

A Long Time Coming.

So I haven’t posted a blog in absolute ages. Which I know I should have done, but between moving house and work I haven’t found much time to do anything, especially since I have been so tired throughout the whole pregnancy.

So 2 weeks ago I went for my 20 week scan, and everything with baby was absolutely fine, no extra arms or legs (or any missing ones).

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When I saw my little baby on the screen I almost cried (I admit a tear leaked out but nothing more, though I wanted too) it was just such a special moment, I can’t explain to non-pregnant women just what a heart-warming and special moment it is seeing your baby inside you. I cannot wait until I have him or her in my arms for real! 

As you can guess we didn’t find out the sex of the baby, though I was debating for ages and ages whether or not too. I desperately want to know (I’m not good with surprises) but at the same time a surprise like this would be amazing. In the end I just decided to go with what felt right on the day (though I had already told the other half that I wouldn’t find out – I still wasn’t sure). So now, late November / early December I with have a little surprise 🙂 

One reason that I haven’t posted anything really is because I don’t think I have much interesting to talk about. I haven’t felt overly excited at some times and all I seem to do is worry about the weight I’m putting on and the stretch marks that everyone seems to harp on about. Am I going to get piles and will sex ever feel normal again?! I’m more scared then anything at times. I’m scared about my changing body, I’m scared that I’m going to be a rubbish mother and I’m scared that I’m too young. I haven’t spoke to my partner about this as he’s so self assured that he’d just tell me I’m being silly. And I have no pregnant friends to talk to about any of this and I get the feeling my other friends are sick to death of me talking about my pregnancy. 

I have no idea about antenatal classes or anything, I feel very small and worried. I am excited for baby and I love buying stuff for him / her today I went and got some teething dummies for when that dreaded day occurs, I’ve bought bibs and bottles and blankets I’m waiting for the cot to turn up – but still, all I can do is worry in silence.

And no I appear to have poured my heart out. 

Anyway, the picture above is of my little bump at 20 weeks, I’m now 23 weeks and over half way through my pregnancy. 

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The Mr and The Midwife.

Honestly, why are men so impatient?

So, we had our first midwife meeting on Thursday (yesterday) but she was running a bit late (30 minutes late to be exact). There were 2 couples in the waiting room, myself and my partner and another couple, a few years older than ourselves.

And honestly, yes I was a bit annoyed at being kept waiting so long when our appointment was at 11am and we didn’t get seen till half past, but you know, as most women do, I decided there was nothing I could do but wait it out. Did my partner? Did the other woman’s partner?

NOPE!!!!

What did they do? They huffed and they puffed, they sighed and they swore. Ok, so maybe this other man had somewhere else to be, but the woman didn’t seem too worried about the wait, just a little irate, like myself, but I know for a fact that my partner had nowhere better to be. So there really was no need to huff puff sigh and swear as he did… MEN!! Honestly, they just need to learn the art of patience. (My personal opinion anyway).

SO …..

We were finally seen by the midwife, who was really lovely and explained to us that she was only late because she had a woman in who couldn’t speak English, which is fair enough, that would obviously take up a lot more time, poor woman, no wonder she was late!! My partner acted like he was wasn’t impatient and hadn’t been huffing and puffing (which made me chuckle as he clearly wanted to moan about the wait LOL).

But anyway, I had been warned that she would ask questions, what I wasn’t prepared for was being inundated and bombarded with a million questions to which I didn’t know the answer to! Thank god my mum got on the longer bus and was able to meet us there! She was a life saver and told my midwife all she needed to know! (Thanks mum)!! She then proceeded to weigh me and measure my height, which made me nauseous as I had thrown the scales out about 5 years ago due to being weight conscious so I had NO idea how much I weighed :/ but it’s all ok, my BMI is a perfect 21 😀

But then she told me that I needed to go pee in a little pot. And when I say little, I mean TINY!!! It was THE worst thing to try to piddle in. And JOY apparently I have to pee in one for EVERY meeting that I have with her. At least by the end of this pregnancy I will be able to pee accurately into a tube I guess…..

But yes, anyway, she seemed lovely and gave me THE BIGGEST book on pregnancy EVER, when she gave it me my first thoughts were ‘I am never going to read this’ but then I got home and I couldn’t put it down! It really was enthralling, but my partner has banned me from looking at a few pages – the ones about still birth – which I’m not sure he should but oh well, I might sneakily read them when he’s not around (shh).

Got my Blood tests on Tuesday, which I’m nervous about, I’ve never had one before :/ knowing me I’ll probably faint. Also I did NOT know that I now get free prescriptions just for being pregnant, and free dentistry, why did no one tell me this? This makes me happy as I’ve been skipping the dentist ’cause I can’t afford it for years!! Oh well 🙂 looking forward to my 12 week scan 🙂

Oh also, Midwife said that I’m more like 8 weeks and 2 days (8w3d today) so Splodge is due on the 5th (or there abouts) of December 😀 😀 😀 a little Christmas bundle ❤

A Little Heartbeat! Made Mine Flutter.

Ok, so last Sunday I posted about the SCARE of my life that I had with Little Splodge.

Well, I am happy to reveal that on Monday I dragged The Partner to the Hospital to have our emergency scan.

I sat in the waiting room almost peeing myself with nerves (I presume it was nerves as I’d already been to pee-pee about 5 times that morning and it was only 9am).

But I was not the worst one, The Partner was wriggling around, making strange nervous noises in his throat and getting more agitated than I was. Which was ridiculous as HE wasn’t the one about to have a scanner shoved up his foo-foo.

ANYWAY so at 9.20 (dead on) we went into the little room with the scanner (I saw the scanner that would go up my foof and panicked – it was very long :/ which made me go pale apparently lol!!)

So anyway, the nurse, who was very lovely, asked me how far I was, I said about 7 weeks and OMG i almost passed out with happiness when she said “Oh well if you’re THAT far gone then we may be able to do an external scan”!!!!!! *PHEW* (The partner almost laughed at my sigh of relief).

So I got onto the bed and bam, NO warning at all she squeezed the ICE-COLD gel onto me, and only warned me that it was cold after my exclamation of  “HOLY FUCK”

SO anyway, I swear the room was DEADLY silent, you could have broken that silence by dropping a feather. The partner was gripping my hand, and I was so nervous! What if there was nothing there?????

But then the nurse spoke

“Yep, I see a heartbeat”

I think my heart stopped right then and there, and then I realised I hadn’t taken a breath for a while and was about to pass out.

She turned the screen and showed us our little babies heartbeat, I swear to God, it was the most precious moment of my life so far, it was so surreal seeing that my little Splodge had a heartbeat. It was tiny, literally just a little Splodge attached to a bubble (which is a Yolk sac which feeds Splodge for a little bit until I start too, or something like that The Partner thinks that this is gross, but never mind).

In the moments where I was watching my babies heartbeat, I think my heart could have almost exploded, it really was one of the most incredible moments ❤ and I love my little Splodge so much. My heart flutters at the thought of its little heartbeat and the fact it’s growing so quickly ❤

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So there’s my good news, I am still pregnant, and my baby is 7 weeks and 2 days today (our own guesstimate was 3 days off!!) and I am the happiest I could be 🙂

Whatever Will Be, Will Be…

So, it’s been a few days, and quite a bit has happened.

 

On Thursday night I had the scare of my life.

I started to bleed, I didn’t know what to do, as I’m finishing Uni I was in my student house and my partner and family were back home. I called them straight away, and as you can imagine I was terrified.

The bleeding didn’t last very long, and but sometimes it was bright red, I was so terrified that I was losing little splodge, I was crying uncontrollably!!

But there wasn’t much that anyone could do, Mum and Dad came and got me and I spent the night crying into my partners shoulder. In the morning we got an emergency appointment with my doctor, who was very sweet about the whole thing. She made it sound like some bleeding is normal, she said it didn’t sound like a miscarriage, but we can’t be too sure  so she’s booked us in for an emergency scan at 9.20 on Monday morning. Because I’m only 7 weeks she said it’ll probably be an internal scan – so I’m now nervous about that too!!

I’m really hoping that nothing is wrong but I’m too scared to keep my hopes high, in something isn’t right and it goes wrong. Every little ache and pain I get at the moment terrifies me… But I’m keeping my fingers crossed!! In the end I guess whatever will be will be.

 

Anyway, so for now, that’s all the pregnancy news I have, will keep everyone updated

xx

Getting the ball rolling.

So, I’ve started the baby process!!

I’ve booked my first Midwife meeting! It’s not for another 2 weeks…. Is it normal to wait that long? Oh well, even if it isn’t I don’t really have a choice.

I’m a wee bit nervous, I mean, I’ve never had to go to one before, Mum says she’ll ask me a load of questions about my families health and any illness (Not that I have a clue about that!!) Greg’ll be there too, but oh hell, I’ll probably end up holding his hand the whole way through like a child!

Add to that, apparently they’re going to steal some of my blood and shove needles in me :/ (Not sure I’m going to enjoy that all too much).

It’s all going to be worth it in the end. I’m just looking forward to my first scan when I get to meet little Splodge ❤

 

6 weeks 1 day today 🙂