A little Blue

So, it’s been a while since I’ve posted anything.

Everything’s good at the moment, no problems, except my constants moods and my¬†inability to be happy. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I just cannot seem to perk up. I’m moody and miserable.

And my partner takes the brunt of my moods. I swear, if he didn’t love me as much as he does then he would have left me weeks ago. But no, he takes it and then guilt trips me afterwards, which, I’m scared about because the guiltier I feel then the more I start to want to be on my own away from him. I haven’t told him how I feel though, he’ll probably just take it the wrong way. He already thinks I don’t love him anymore because I seem to have lost my libido.

My NHS pregnancy card turned up so I am now exempt from paying for prescriptions, which is a bonus I guess. And my twelve week scan is booked for the 24th of this month, which I’m lucking forward too. Get to see my little splodge again on the big (kinda) screen.

Well, my news is few and far between at the moment as I wait for something exciting to happen like – a bump to emerge.

Not that I’m all that excited to have a bump, as for some reason people always think that pregnant women like to be touched and stroked – and THAT is so not going to happen. I refuse to let people pet me and stroke my belly.